Vent sesh: I’ve religiously woken up all week around 5am to do interval training on my elliptical and have been doing my weight trainig at night.  I’ve also been having protein smoothies in the am for bfast, almonds for snacks, salads for lunch, and a light vegitarian dinner.  Yet my size 12 pants are exceptionally snug today. It’s a bit disheartening to work out so hard you can barely walk and your pants are telling you to shove it.  I should go buy a cheeseburger and throw it all over my pants and tell my pants to shove it. Wait… that cheeseburger would be too delicious to waste.

According to the LA Times the average U.S. woman is 162.9 pounds and wears a size 14 (which I believe is based on a 5’-4’ height). I’m 150lbs +/- pending the day, 5’-3”, and a size 12.  I do not rest assure in the fact that I am close to the national average.  In fact its alarming to me.  It’s alarming because that many women are in pain on a daily basis when their pants are digging in to their abdomen because they’re spilling out over the top of them and their thighs are bruised and reddened at the end of the day bc their legs dont fit right in their pants.

Is it safe to assume that one too many people are falling slaves to fast food? Am I the only “national average” who does not eat (and will not eat) fast food, bagels, and anything proceessed or are other people finding that their bodies are just naturally storing fat regardless of their efforts to eat healthy?

This afternoon someone I work with actually stood aside to let me walk by (in a typical common corridor mind you). Seriously? I wish it was after lunch time because it would at least given me motivation to purge my salad I had. I wonder if balsamic burns coming up?

Dear genetic background,

I am dedicating my first post to you. I’ve spent countless hours of my life trying to appease you with hopes you’d meet me half way.  I even gave up delicious french fries (my favorite food by the way), pasta (second to the fries), and any other incredibly stimulating food just for you. I’ve adapted to enjoying plain oatmeal, salads, bland chicken, and even Tofu! I’ve also gotten up every morning at 5am (the suns not even out yet) to do 30 mins of cardio to then work a 12-15hr stressful day and then come home from work at 9pm to do weight training. All I am asking in exchange for my sacrifice is for you to take some of that extra “baggage” off of what should be my abs, hips, and my thighs. As an added bonus, I am throwing in a tumblr blog that is all about you.  So what do you say you meet me 20% of the way?

With absolute certainty you will kick me in the knee when I turn away,

Me