October 2010
3 posts
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Hope you're not in the same bloat...
My pants are really painful today. I cant even sit straight in my chair bc I am in so much pain. I’m skipping dinner and just working out really hard instead just like I did on Monday. Hopefully I wont get dizzy this time.
Expanding by the minute...literally
In one year, I’ve gained 30lbs. I’ve calculated that to be 2.5lbs a month which means every week I am gaining a little more than a half a pound. Which explains why the pants I put on this AM that fit do not fit me now and are really painful to wear. Today I’ve consumed; a protein smoothie, piece of wheat bread, a half cup of coffee, a handful of oatmeal square cereal, chicken...
Never believe anything you read
http://www.womenshealthmag.com/nutrition/eating-plan
I eat very similar to this everyday and do my best to work out at LEAST 3 times we ek (which is almost impossible w my insane work schedule) and yet I am gaining weight/mass. I’m convinced people publish this shit to ensure they always have a target market.
September 2010
11 posts
Its The Effin' Anorexia Wine Mixer
Something I’ve learned in the past 24 hours is that anorexia and my love for drinking do not mix. I am confident that bulimia and alcohol would have a working relationship however I want to keep my teeth. My quest continues for the perfect eating disorder for my lifestyle!
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Eating disorder fail
I had an egg roll and some green beans….I sat hours in a conference room next to the pantry and smelled the left over chinese food the whole time. I gave in shortly after my meeting was over. I’m not even good at aquiring an eating disorder.
Getting my eating disorder on...
We had a manditory staff lunch today and it was filled with chinese food. I told them I wasnt feeling well and didnt want to eat anything that might upset my stomach. An eating disorders gotta start somewhere…
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Not so lovely lady lumps
My pants are to tight lately that I have bruises and welts on my hips. My boyfriend feels terrible when he sees me getting upset over the physical abuse I take from clothes. I’ve worked 35 hours in 3 days and havent had an ounce of time to work out. I tried dragging my ass out of bed ridic early on Wednesday to work out but I fell over from exhaustion and I was sent back to bed by my...
Fat girl little coat
I purchased a fall jacket today online (an adorable Northface windproof jacket for hiking/fall outdoorsy stuff). I sure as hell hope I can fit in it when it arrives. I will be completely disappointed/angry if I have to get a larger size. I think I’ll stop eating lunch/dinner til it arrives just to be sure.
Running myself thin
I don’t know how much longer I can do the 5am workout sessions on 5 hours of sleep. I still feel like shit and still can’t fit in my pants. I have welts/raw skin on my hips from the jeans I squished myself into this weekend. I skipped my workout this am because I am too tired so I decided I am not allowed to eat for the rest of the day. Why do I have to torture myself so much?
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Flabs Diet
Vent sesh: I’ve religiously woken up all week around 5am to do interval training on my elliptical and have been doing my weight trainig at night. I’ve also been having protein smoothies in the am for bfast, almonds for snacks, salads for lunch, and a light vegitarian dinner. Yet my size 12 pants are exceptionally snug today. It’s a bit disheartening to work out so hard you can...
Average Woman?
According to the LA Times the average U.S. woman is 162.9 pounds and wears a size 14 (which I believe is based on a 5’-4’ height). I’m 150lbs +/- pending the day, 5’-3”, and a size 12. I do not rest assure in the fact that I am close to the national average. In fact its alarming to me. It’s alarming because that many women are in pain on a daily basis when...
Wider than a common corridor?
This afternoon someone I work with actually stood aside to let me walk by (in a typical common corridor mind you). Seriously? I wish it was after lunch time because it would at least given me motivation to purge my salad I had. I wonder if balsamic burns coming up?
Why so fat?
Dear genetic background,
I am dedicating my first post to you. I’ve spent countless hours of my life trying to appease you with hopes you’d meet me half way. I even gave up delicious french fries (my favorite food by the way), pasta (second to the fries), and any other incredibly stimulating food just for you. I’ve adapted to enjoying plain oatmeal, salads, bland chicken, and...
